my thoughts; betrayal

is khushi mein najane
ye mann kyun dukhi
rehne laga

najane kyun is sukh
ki prapti ke baad bhi
ajeeb si mayusi bas gayi
hain is dil mein

ummeed se shayad kahin
dhokhe ka asaar dikh
raha hain
tabhi shayad dil
mein khushi se zyada
wo zara sa gam
haavi ho chala hain

ab tareek nikal-jaane
ke baad umeed
bhi kitne der
tak sans le
kyunki bharose ka
sawaal utha to
tareek tak ummeed thi
ab wo ummeed bhi
gum hoti nazar
aa rahi hain, aur
aise mein mann
sirf soch raha hain
ke khushi ke saath
mayusi ka ye
kaisa ajeeb sammelan
hain

aur is sammelan ke chalte
khud ko is chinta se
duur rakh paana
mushkil hain ke kab
safal hogi wo ummeed
ya phir kab poora
hoga iska naya
praroop
jaate jaate ummeed
se bekar ho chali
hain ye safar
aur fir kabhi
kisi mod par
mulaqat ho bhi jaye
to nazar pher kar
chal dunga
kyunki ummeed aaj
bekaar hoti nazar
aa rahi hain

phir bhale hi ye
ummeed poori ho
par samay ke baad
zarurat bekar ho jaati
ye zaruat poori ho
bhi to ummeed ke
dhokha ka asar to
zindagi bhar rehta
hain

kehte hain ke
jaane wale ko
kaun rok saka hain
ab iske saath
ek aur joda jayega
jaane wale ke
saath ummeed ka
dhokha sabse bada
shraap hain
us dhokhe ke liye
kyunki dil se
nikli aah
kabhi bhi khali
nahi jaati