my state of consciouness

probably, the most intriguing words that can express myself at this point, when once again it felt like seperating for her benefit:

"
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
or maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And I have a hangover...
Have a hangover

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun

I think I'm dumb            x 12
"
 
-
Group : Nirvana
Track :  "Dumb"
Album:  In Utero / MTV Unplugged in New York December 12 1993

 
hope that her endeavour succeeds to what she wishes for. my best wishes are with her, all the way.
yes, despite being 'dumb' as in the song... and pretending and thinking to be happy while she thinks
that my sadness isnt really what she can connect to, obviously due to the short-time period which we
spent together and despite all the challenges we were happy, yes we were. but den, time now calls for
sacrifice and once more i'd stand to it, for you dear. every moment from now on is going to be dumb,
for the happiness is going away with you, or maybe you've already gone and i've realised it a bit late...

i wish you all the best, my beloved