my thoughts and experience; the lull after the storm

two days have passed
since the storm, and
the aftereffects remain
and will lilnger around
till either gets to either-side
for time long-enough
but even during these
two days, talks happened
and laughs kept up
as normal as-ever

and it hardly seems
that talks have stopped
that she doesn't miss me
or I dont' for her at all
these were all what
happened between us
everyday all along
so even the decision
looks hard enough
as to what it implies
'cause I still feel
everything that kept
between us till date

and I still think
'bout her as I used to
most of the times,
as if she was my routine
and I couldn't do
widout her at all;
and all this was
on its own and
never forced-upon

so the magic that
kept us 2gether
still holds us 2gether;
many say that
either have a yes
or a no as things
complicate now-on,
and many say
that carry on
don't lose hope,
cause the love care
of urs will bring
her to ur life

amidst all sayings
I find myself lost
and found
as though none
is clearer enough
to lead the way
and mark its presence
but I do feel bad
thinking bout the
dilemma she had,
and probably dats y
the decision taken

but I hope that she
becomes confident
enough along-way
to either be happy
or make-sad with
her present, 'cause
rite now she is none
and standing in-between
happy and sad;
either of them
would her be
once again the
person she was,
which for now
she is not.

also, either of
the states would
make her concentrate
on things which she
ought to and which
I've been pushing
ever since I've known her,
those would help
her more and shape
her personality whole;
I fear that the day
I stop pushing she'd
forget all and forget
these things required

I know, probably
I care too much
but thats how I
have been all-along,
for whom I care
I care with my all
and for whom I love
I give my evrything
and more to nurture;
dont know if it
really helps me
or breaks me,
but I can't change
this imbibed trait
something which
my genes have
brought along in me.
so if u really got
angry or irritated
at my extra care,
am sorry, for all I
meant was concern
of urs and care.

I hope I be
understood for
what I am and
for what I have,
just me myself
as a whole
without any
comparisions;
by her someday
and be loved
if possible for
what I've given
her till date,
for I am not
such that will
turn away with
the change of wind
or place or time.
changes do occur
and its inevitable,
then how are we
to sustain if we
keep doubts over
changes and be
negative with it?
and how are you
to confirm that
you may not change?
'yes I may!' that
u'd say as u have.
then y not trust the
one who cares
for u at present
and has been wid u
despite ur anger
and irritate-times.
if u can, then plz
accept me for
my care concern
and love till-date
which will only
continue to
grow and nourish
u as time ticks;
for I have not
learnt to turn
my back despite odds
and u've known
that wid time.

all the best to you,
my dear friend
my beloved
my everything
hope u be confident
and unfazed